Have you ever heard of Isadora Duncan? Duncan was one of the founders of ‘modern dance’ – she hated the ritualistic, formulated steps of ballet and felt that dance should be a true expression of your wild side. When I was young I saw pictures of her, and had a vague, romantic notion of her free spirit. And, oh, those scarves! Even her death was dramatic – a trailing scarf caught in the wheels of a car and breaking her neck! (yeah – I know…but I was young then…)
Duncan retained her spirit until her death. She defied convention, and was an inspiration for many artists. She bore children out of wedlock ( in the early 1900′s – scandalous!), married a poet 20 years younger than her (You GO, girl!), and socialized in Paris and the Mediterranean in the company of other artists.
I remember as a young girl, I always told tales. I had an imagination. I eagerly tried new things. I had a wild side! No wonder Isadora’s life appealed to me.
When I began college classes a few years ago, my first English assignment was to write an essay introducing myself. My essay ended up being about finding myself after divorce. You see, when I got my divorce, I realized that I didn’t know who I was. I had always been somebody’s daughter, wife, or mother. I hadn’t been me since I was about 10. Once someone asked me what I liked to do…and I didn’t know. Re-discovering me has been a slow process, and I admit that I am still surprised by things I find.
One thing about me that has returned is my willingness to set aside small fears and plunge in. No, I won’t leap out of an airplane, BASE or bungee jump, but that goes back to my fear of heights. Almost anything else deserves exploring! I absolutely love learning about things, even if I don’t repeat the experiment.
Writing helps keep my wild side going. Even if I don’t have the nerve to make that parachute jump, I can create a character that not only does it with a parachute, but finds free-falling exhilarating. I can design a heroine that can climb mountains and swim the English Channel. While this may be a way to keep myself physically safe, it is also a way to experience things that I know my 65-year-old body just isn’t capable of accomplishing any more. Oh, to be 16 again and limber and athletic.
How many of you look back and think, “Gee… I wish I had done (or tried) that while I was in better shape.”?
Well – why not? Why not let your mind and your words and your newest hero do it for you? You are only limited by your imagination.
Love this blog entry and love the reminder that we should all keep growing and learning and jumping into life with both feet!!! AND, love that what we CHOOSE not to do, we can still write about – rock on, Gayle, rock on. . .
Thanks, Diane!!!